throwing in the proverbial towel

Alrighty, yesterday was such a good day- mentally speaking. Then this Hot Blogger Calendar crept into my brain and the OCD took over. I became completely obsessed! I came out of the blogging closet to many of my 'real life friends' JUST TO GET A COUPLE VOTES! So, that's good, now they will know I'm a loser and be able to read how crazy I am, as well-FAB!

I kept asking myself...who needs this trip more than me? No One. I have not been away from my kids in 3 years and 4 months- no shit! We took a trip to the lake when Beebs was two months old- that's it! So, my admitting how pathetic I am should count for something, no? That's pretty damn pathetic.

Then I thought...I never win anything, granted, you have to play to win, most of the time, but I still don't win anything. I won a nasty Strawberry flavored cake from a bake sale raffle when I was in eighth grade. That's the first and last thing I ever won.

When I was a senior in high school, my mom made encouraged me to be in a local pageant for a scholarship. There were 7 girls. I was 6th runner up. Yes, it always confuses me, but including one girl as the winner, that would make me DEAD LAST! That was probably one of the most embarrassing moments in my life- it was even aired on the local cable channel- I was a train wreck!

So , all good things must come to an end. I must admit, it was fun while it lasted, but then that damn reality sets in! I decided that I should probably face the conclusion that I have been mathematically eliminated from this contest- because I am a realist! I actually was in the top half of the standings, which, in my mind, was a victory- as long as I wasn't DEAD LAST!

Then I hear that the server shut down last night from "overload"- I'm guessing that wasn't from people trying to vote for me, just a hunch.

During my obsession yesterday, I even figured out a way to put the voting box on the post to simplify your voting power- knowing how I'm not tech savvy, I thought I would keep it here because getting it was an accomplishment in itself! And if you haven't voted yet and feel so obliged to waste your vote pity me- that would be great!

hit CTRL plus the letter F and type in TenaKim(My Therapy) in the box- or you can scroll down.