I'm coming out of hiding

In case anyone cares, I am still alive, barely. I was never sick, just held hostage by my mid-life crisis, anxious husband and 4 ungratefully spoiled rotten kids in a cluttered, dusty, Holiday Hell house. I put the bulk of trees and decorations away the day after Christmas. That didn't ease the pain.

I have now put all Christmas stuff away officially and was on my hands and knees, hot and sweaty- CLEANING- you dirty minds- all day yesterday. It does ease my mind a little, but what's more... my husband is BACK AT WORK!!!

2008 was a tough year for him, I'll give him that. His dad died. He was hospitalized for the first time in his life for 6 days of uncertainty and surgical procedures. Then December 1, there was an incident with him at work (still unresolved) that added more stress, more time off, and unnecessary anxiety to the worse anxiety disorder I have ever witnessed (not me and he's not a medicating man-lucky me!)

The stress around the house has been palpable. The sweaty palms, breathing palpitations, and paralytic limbs have subsided just a bit since he is back at work today as of 6AM. Since Oct.14- he has worked only 13 days! Besides the obvious financial fallout from such a limited work schedule, 2 people should not coexist in a house together for that amount of time- at least not US!


So, here is my first attempt at getting my blogging feet wet again- something I do for me. It's not coming so easy and I feel like I have missed soooo much and am out of the loop (it would be great if you could fill me in on any gossip in the comments).


I don't like to burden people with me, me, me, but this is the only place I do that. I don't want people to think I am a narcissist. My real life is NOT about me- ever. I take care of everyone else and lately I've been working overtime.


I'm not going to lie to myself about some bullshit "diet" resolution (although it's much needed since I have turned quite paranoid that someone has been secretly washing ALL of my clothes in hot water and shrinking them several sizes!) Instead, I thought I would just try to take my life back. It has gotten away from me in the last few months.

Here's hoping that 2009 kicks someone else's ass- other than mine! CHEERS!