Saturday, January 3, 2009

I'm coming out of hiding

In case anyone cares, I am still alive, barely. I was never sick, just held hostage by my mid-life crisis, anxious husband and 4 ungratefully spoiled rotten kids in a cluttered, dusty, Holiday Hell house. I put the bulk of trees and decorations away the day after Christmas. That didn't ease the pain.

I have now put all Christmas stuff away officially and was on my hands and knees, hot and sweaty- CLEANING- you dirty minds- all day yesterday. It does ease my mind a little, but what's more... my husband is BACK AT WORK!!!

2008 was a tough year for him, I'll give him that. His dad died. He was hospitalized for the first time in his life for 6 days of uncertainty and surgical procedures. Then December 1, there was an incident with him at work (still unresolved) that added more stress, more time off, and unnecessary anxiety to the worse anxiety disorder I have ever witnessed (not me and he's not a medicating man-lucky me!)

The stress around the house has been palpable. The sweaty palms, breathing palpitations, and paralytic limbs have subsided just a bit since he is back at work today as of 6AM. Since Oct.14- he has worked only 13 days! Besides the obvious financial fallout from such a limited work schedule, 2 people should not coexist in a house together for that amount of time- at least not US!


So, here is my first attempt at getting my blogging feet wet again- something I do for me. It's not coming so easy and I feel like I have missed soooo much and am out of the loop (it would be great if you could fill me in on any gossip in the comments).


I don't like to burden people with me, me, me, but this is the only place I do that. I don't want people to think I am a narcissist. My real life is NOT about me- ever. I take care of everyone else and lately I've been working overtime.


I'm not going to lie to myself about some bullshit "diet" resolution (although it's much needed since I have turned quite paranoid that someone has been secretly washing ALL of my clothes in hot water and shrinking them several sizes!) Instead, I thought I would just try to take my life back. It has gotten away from me in the last few months.

Here's hoping that 2009 kicks someone else's ass- other than mine! CHEERS!



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28 comments:

Honeybell said...

Darling, you're a blogger. Of course you're a narcissist. We all are. :p

Glad you're back, and I'm wishing you some PEACE for the new year.

Jen said...

Glad you're back! You've been missed. I can't think of any good gossip so I'll just say Happy New Year!

Blog said...

Hola! It's Kim from Kim & Co./BUI. I had to move my site due to lurkers who I didn't want lurking.

I hope things settle for you soon. We missed you!

The Mom said...

I come here for the YOU You YOU! Have a fab 2009, maybe you can resolve to Twitter more!! Love to see ya over there!

Ronda's Rants said...

Oh ppppleeeaasssee blog away...we all do it!
I am sorry and I hope things get better...I hope 2009 does not kick my butt anymore...it is a big booty but I can't handle any more butt kicking!
Here's to happier days...CHEERS!

Chocolate Covered Daydreams said...

So glad hubby is back to work and you've started the new year with lots of peace of mind! It can only get better!

Wishing you a Happy New Year!

Jay @halftime lessons said...

I hope FOR you, Tena...

Have a great(er) year.

Jay

The Panic Room said...

I thought I was a panic. Sorry to hear about the tough times with your husband I hope he gets thru it okay. But wait... I am here for YOU. I am sure a few more blogs and you will be feeling just fine. Just keep letting it all out.

Annie said...

Holy crap.13 days?!?!? AL has been home since the week before Xmas and that was plenty!
I've missed you!
Here's to a great 2009 for you all!

Dawn@Embracing the Ordinary Life said...

Oh hun, it's great to have you back. I'm sorry about what a crappy 2008 you had...mine wasn't much better.

I hope for a 10xs better 2009...

My dh has been off for two weeks...as well as the kids...my winter break starts monday, when everyone LEAVES...

Jenni Jiggety said...

Hey! Welcome to 2009! It's going to kick ass...I just know it!

Deb said...

Missed you!!! My 2009 hasn't gotten started so well, so let's hope that it gets better for us both!!

Linda S said...

glad you are back. I'm sorry you've had it rough. Here's to hoping 2009 is your year, sweetie!!

Minxy Mimi said...

Welcome back! I hope your hubby is happy at work and you get some much needed rest and relaxation!
I hope 2009 is a better year for us both.

Mrs4444 said...

Well, that's good news! Welcome back to the world of blogging, my friend :) I'm glad you're here.

Lee the MWOB Queen said...

Oh girl - so sorry to hear how tough 2008 was for you...there is nothing worse than when your man is having a rough go. BUt back at work is a good start so I say '09 is looking up, up, up!!

Good to have you back at the keyboard...

Aubrey said...

I'm glad to have you back in business. We keep coming back to hear about you and more of you!

I know exactly where that ass kickin' can go!

Amy Amy Bo Bamey said...

Good to see you back! I am glad your Hubby is back to work as well. Hopefully 2009 will treat you better than 2008 did. I have missed you!

SOUP OF THE DAY said...

Well - Happy 2009! Last year is SO over. And, hopefully all the bad energy too.....

J'Ollie Primitives said...

Welcome back! I've missed you!

bsouth said...

Thank heavens you're back! Please be all about you, you, you - it's why i keep coming back for more.

Susan in the Psych Ward said...

Glad you're back... last year hubs had all this vacation to take and took like the last 3 weeks of December.... didn't do a single thing to help with Christmas shopping and I couldn't wait for him to go back Jan 2nd! So, I get the stress!

Twisted Lisa said...

Cheers to 2009! Screw the News Years Resolutions...I totally forgot to make any.

Sabrae Carter said...

Oh YAY my woman is back! :) MISSED YOU POSTING YOU TERD!

Paige said...

I am so glad you are back--and what else will you talk about on your blog besides you? Me? Please, I can do that!

And major thumbs up on the husband back to work--go 2009!

Terri said...

you go girl! 2009 fresh start and all that, here's hoping it's better than 2008.

lisa said...

Wow! I think I found my soul mate and we're definately on the same page.

I stumbled upon your blog and had to sign up for more. Keep it coming.

Kori said...

And not mine, either. I know one of those skinny cheerleading-type bitches, maybe 2009 can stroll there and kick HER ass.