Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Time for a good cry!

In real life, I am as structured as the day is long! I write lists, keep a spotless house, the kids have a strict routine of homework and chores and go to bed at the same time every night- everything here is boring tightly regimented.

In my blogging life, I am able to turn from (loving) drill sergeant to fly by the seat of my pants, cooky bi-polar-ish, rambler of anything that pops in my manic mind. You're welcome.

I don't plan any posts. I read other blogs (secretly hoping to get tagged with a meme or given an award) and my e-mail every morning, hoping to get inspired and sometimes it works, sometimes, not so much. Sorry.

This morning, the theme is waterworks. I don't know if it's hormonal or I just happened on a lot of tear jerkers recently.

It started last night. I rented the movie, Sex and the City. I love SATC, but never get to the movies. So, this was long anticipated and I was sooo looking forward to it!

The opening five minutes or so of the movie is just a synopsis of the series to bring you current. I could feel the little hairs on the back of my neck standing up, then the goosebumps, then the tears. They were happy tears, but tears nonetheless.

Then about 10 minutes in, my DVD just stopped- tears again! (Ok, maybe those were of the hormonal variety.) After some tearful cursing at the DVD, ( I almost just typed VCR- can you say child of the 80's!) cleaning the fingerprints off, and slapping the DVD player around a little- we were back in business. I dried my eyes so I could immerse myself.

I cried the 'awwww' tears (where your head tilts) and the happy tears( where you are crying through a smile and your husband asks why you're crying!!!). There were ugly laughing tears where you are crying and then start laughing in the middle and then cry again, then just sort of a convulsing cry/laugh thing because your brain doesn't know whether you're happy or sad! Then the bawling "my best friend just died tears"- it wasn't pretty. I don't believe I have cried more in a movie in my entire life! When I woke up this morning, my eyes looked like I had been left at the alter last night!

So, through my swollen, bloodshot eyes, I do my morning rounds (that is, blog reading, I just play a doctor on the internet). It is Jill's birthday- HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABY! I expect a fun post from her- I mean she is a week long birthday celebrator, right? Nope, she is having a difficult day because it's her first since her dad has passed away. More tears. Maybe I can count on her sister, Amy, for some comic relief. THANKS A LOT AMY, for deciding to be all deep and emotional when I clearly am not able to find my cry "off" switch!

The story that Amy told reminded me of a site that Jen introduced me to...matt, liz, and madeline- Fair warning if you are not in the mood to totally cry your eyes out- DO NOT READ THAT POST!

At this point, I don't think I am PMS-ing, but now I'm doubting myself so I feel myself up to see if my boobs are sore just to make sure! NOPE, just a blubbering fool.

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21 comments:

mommablogsalot said...

I was the same way when I watched SATC - crying throughout the WHOLE movie in between laughing, it was very confusing for my poor emotions and I'm glad my husband wasn't there to witness it! haha

Dawn@Embracing the Ordinary Life said...

Aww...poor thing. I'm not a big crier...but when I do it's usually BIG. Only one movie has ever made me cry and it does it every time....Steel Magnolias, the scean after the burial where she does insane about how it's not fair...EVERY SINGLE TIME.

Amy Amy Bo Bamey said...

I never really got into SATC.

I think a good cry is always good every now and then. My hubby cries watching the movie "Little Princess" I cry watching Wipeout :)

Insane Mama said...

I'm an emotional roller coaster these days, perhaps I should hold off on seeing it.

Tiffany said...

Aww poor Tena. *secretly sliding you some chocolate*

But I bet that damn VCR er I mean DVD won't fuck with you no more. You sure taught him his lesson.

And my monthly visitor is a week late and I take bc. WTF?? I guess I just won't have one this month. Or maybe I'm just secretly dying. Oh hush now. I'm sorry I said that. I don't want you crying again.

Deb said...

I can't wait to watch SATC!!! So excited! Although, I'm not sure I'm up for crying a lot. I'll probably take my chances.

Annie said...

I loved that movie! I can't wait to rent it as well and re-live it all over again!

Don't cry, dry yo eye.

Queen-Size funny bone said...

oh my god, i have it in the player ready to go after I'm done blogging. lucky im in a crying mood this morning so let the tears flow. I hope i'll like it.

Cheryl said...

I LOVE TO CRY. It's so good for you. I think? Besides the rocking headache I get and the red eyes that look like I'm a dope addict, it's sort of a good feeling. I'm pretty level headed most of the time but I do cry like a baby when I watch certain movies (ever see I Am Sam? I started crying the minute it started), when I think of my parents, etc etc. Not just the sad stuff, though...sometimes it's happy stuff like seeing the face on my youngest daughter at the circus...SO excited. I cried like an idiot. THe other day, I cried in the shower--no, not because I realized that I'm not America's Top Model, but because I've been single almost 8 years and I now have this guy in my life who thinks I am the bomb. SO, instead of smiling, I cried. Insanity.

You're awesome!

Soulfully Blonde said...

I can totally relate. I did all that while reading a book last night! :P Isn't it fun being a girl? lol

Crazed Mom said...

Aren't hormones fun? NOT! I enjoyed the movie SATC and since I was in a theater I restrained my tears.

I'm with Dawn Steel Magnolia's never fails to make me cry especially the funeral scene.

JaniceNW

The Mom said...

OH MAN! SATC was a SOB fest. I almost bought it at Target yesterday (saw it in the theater 3 times) but I wanted to wait.

Oh yeah Matt, Liz, Madeline...man oh man, OH MAN!

Unite in the ugly cry ladies, it's okay!

georgie said...

LOVED SATC-Yep Amy that bitch had me in tears first thing this morning

Debbie said...

Hi. Just out bloghopping and found you. You have some funny, funny stuff on here. Not so much today's! We all have these crying days, don't we? Lots of movies make me cry. I thnk it must be healthy.

amelia bedelia said...

I'm sorry you have been crying so much and that I attributed to that! I'm a sympathy cryer, so I'll cry right along with you!! I will try really hard to put something funny on my blog tomorrow!

jill jill bo bill said...

You are sooo sweet and I thank you for the link and the well wishes and mostly for being my crazy ass blog friend who makes me laugh even when you don't mean to. I was so in funk Mon and Tues and thought it solely because of my daddy. But three friends told me today that thedet in a funk before their birthday and every major holiday for no reason. So maybe you are a weirdo like us. Thanks again! LOVE YA!!!!

jill jill bo bill said...

thedet? WTF? I mean "they get". F'n old age........

jaime said...

I never got into SATC, but SYTYCD is good! and AGT or DWTS, yup there's also CSI:SVU, or NCIS. Even 90210 and ANTM, ER & BB!

lol, cheer up!

so Carrie gets left at the alter eh?? hehehe

HappyHourSue said...

That website is just so sad and tragic- that she never got to experience the joy of holding her baby even once. Totally has me in tears.

Isn't today your birthday?

Terri said...

birthday perhaps? isn't it someones birthday or close to it or just passed? Hope it was happy but by the sounds of this post, maybe not so???? :o(

CailinMarie said...

having never ever watched the TV show I went to the theater with my cousin an avid fan... and my auntie and my auntie's sister. My mother was invited and my mother is a prude and I WAS SO GLAD she wasn't there... OMG!... and I cried through out the whole damn movie. It was embarrassing!!!
and I'm really sorry about Jill.
that is rotten. and it doesn't really get better. just not so sharp.
wishing you a bowlful of chocolate ice cream and whatever your fav. alcohol is...