A review and an explanation of my lameitude- yes, that's a word I just invented.

Who's been watching United States of Tara on Showtime? It's an amazing show. Back in the day, it was called Multiple Personality Disorder- now it's known as DID- Disassociate Identity Disorder (like when I was growing up- the bad kids were 'the bad kids' but now they have ADHD.)

Tara is a mom that suffers from this disorder and has made the decision to live without medicating. Therefore, in a sense, embracing the other 'characters'. Her husband, sister and 2 kids have become familiar with her 'alters' that include "Alice"- a 50's homemaker-Doris Day- on crack. "Buck", the flannel wearing male of the bunch- he's a bully in a protective sort of way. Then there is "T"- a 16 year old, promiscuous girl who hates all things structured and authoritative. They have just introduced "Gimme"- a new alter that is animalistic. The show is well-written and has amazing acting- especially Toni Collette- who embodies every ounce of each 'alter'!

I know there is a real disorder that this brings attention to, and I'm not trying to dismiss or downplay that. However, in the grand scheme of things, I relate to this show, a lot. I'm only slightly nuts, and my personalities don't have their own names, but that's really only because I'm not consistent. Really, she's got her shit together more than me!

Tara's alter characters make their entrance upon stressful situations. I have been known to morph into a multitude of crazies under stress. I feel the pull from many directions of having to be so many different things- the expectations of the world, I suppose.

I often wake up and wonder- who am I going to be today? Am I going to be the carefree mom that likes to laugh and help her kids with their homework, the clean freak that yells about dirty socks on the floor, the motivated woman at the gym who vows to eat nothing but salads until she smells cookies, the blogger that actually has something worthwhile to say, the blogger that offends readers and scares them off, or the friend that is just there to listen? And those were only Wednesday's characters!

I'm not sure who I am today or who I've been for the last couple of weeks, actually. Uninspired. Lazy. Just been going with the flow. Doing the least I have to- just to get by in life without the authorites being alerted.

I have always written what's on my mind. My mind has been pretty blank, lately. I have been watching a lot of television- not sure if that's good or bad- maybe not so good when I'm comparing myself with someone that has multiple personalities, huh? I guess it's a good thing The Soprano's is off the air.


I do have a giveaway right now- go here and leave a message- a winner will be picked Wednesday, March 25.