Monday, March 30, 2009

KMBFBAG- recharged!


I am not happy at a heavier weight- period. Some people can be- not me- I envy that in others. It invades every aspect of my being. I hate the way I look. I hate the way I feel. I hate having the struggle of finding something to wear and being out in public. I avoid invitations at every cost. I'm just not comfortable in my own skin when I carry extra weight.

I know this is not a good thing and is probably an extreme. I'm not sure if it's attributed to my being SO skinny until my 20's or my upbringing- my mom is a vain woman, too.

About 7 years ago, I was at my heaviest and my husband and I decided to hire a nutritionist. He owned a local gym and offered a program that guaranteed results. We were anticipating our first beach vacation to Florida and wanted to get 'in shape'.

For 3 months, we followed his dietary instructions and worked out exactly as he told us. It probably didn't hurt that he was a bulky beefcake and could crush us with his little finger- we did not want to let him down!

About half way through his program, we went to a party and were offered something that was not 'allowed' on our diet. I remember the woman that offered it asking why I was on a diet. I told her that we were going to Florida. She replied, as she figuratively sized me up,

"Last time I checked, they let people this size in Florida."
Can I tell you how much I love that girl? I wish I thought like her. Sadly, I do not!

After that program, I was in the best shape of my life! I dropped the weight and was quite the hard body (for a mom of 3, anyway). I loved shopping for my vacation clothes! I wasn't uncomfortable on the beach or in my skin.

I don't know if my body will ever get back to that place, but I am determined to try like hell! Back then, it was the trip to Florida. At the party I went to this weekend, I may just have stumbled upon my new driving force...I hadn't seen these friends in about 2 years. It was great to see them. There was more of them to see, too. Three of the 5 women got breast implants! They all look amazing and are looking forward to their summer parties- in the pool- wearing swimsuits-GULP!

Full force ahead, folks!

Last week, I followed the Sacred Heart Diet to a T. I did not have a loss of energy. I felt fine. I would have REALLY enjoyed a chocolate chip cookie, but beauty has its price.

I heard the horror stories about exploding bowels. I didn't have this problem either. Maybe a case of the shits would have rendered better results- I'm glad my body decided to take a pass on that, though.

I had gained a little and at the beginning of last week, was at 143. This morning, the scale read 138. Not the 10-17lb magic bullet that the diet claimed, but absolutely the progress that I needed to keep me going.


Starting Weight- 150lbs
Today's Weight- 138lbs
Total loss- 12lbs

How was your week?


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21 comments:

Tina-cious.com said...

I gained a pound.

Le sigh... :)

Annie said...

Good for you, girlfriend! I miss you!
Signed,
Your twin with the large ass

Amy Amy Bo Bamey said...

WOW girl, 5 lbs! WAY TO GO!

I am impressed, now are you going to do the same diet again this week?

I am going to try harder this week. I hope to see better results next week.

mommablogsalot said...

Wow congrats on the weight loss!

Julia@SometimesLucid said...

That's great! Congratulations on the 5 lb loss!!!

Coloradolady said...

If my numbers were what you are now...Oh, happy day. I am going to go back to trying to get this weight off.....soon. I wish I was a hard body again...I just hate working out....and eating...I love food...

♥georgie♥ said...

YOU ROCK!!!!! Loved the story, so happy you are loosin the LBS!!!

Mary@Holy Mackerel said...

Good for you!!

I don't compare bodies. I just am. Although I used to, until I gave up out of desperation.

Under the Influence said...

Woo hoo!

I have dieting friends who always say "nothing tastes better than being thin!"

Evolving Mommy Catherine said...

It is hard to stay dedicated, even if it is just for a week...way to go Tena!

The Mom Jen said...

Way to Go Tena!!

Sticky (not too) said...

Can I jump on-board? I could sure use the support...it's lonely out here all alone and a cookie is looking pretty good right now.

I am so impressed with how well you're doing. I'm trying to drag myself out of the "too depreesed to do anything about it"s...

Deb said...

you friggin ROCK, girlfriend! nice work. you are going to inspire us all... i'm so proud of you!

Susan in the Psych Ward said...

I think that's GREAT! Better than me, you notice I didn't blog about that this week!

jill jill bo bill said...

I am so proud for you. I haven't even had the energy to climb the stairs to where the wii lies in wait for me. Being stressed out is so tiring.

Scandalous Housewife said...

I am so rockin' since I got the vomit/shits flu! Woo-hoo!

Brittany said...

12 pounds!?!?! WOOHOO!

But wait, wasn't one of the requirements of the Blogher roomie contract was that you couldn't be super duper skinny as to overshadow you fat post partum roommate!?!?!

Jen said...

You are doing so well. I am really proud of you. I can totally relate to this post. I know that I'm not fat. I just feel more comfortable with my body at a lower weight. It may be the fact that my clothes aren't cutting off my circulation, but I think it is probably just a higher self esteem and more energy.

I just read yesterday to make sure you eat something before and after working out. If not, the exercise may burn muscle instead of fat. Just thought I'd pass that along in case you didn't already know this.

Congrats on you weight loss!

Soxy Deb said...

Tena that is amazing! I wish I were having the same results you are having. But I guess I'm not really working hard enough though. Maybe when life gets back to normal.

Congrats to you and keep it going girl!

Piece o' Coconut Cake said...

I think I'm going to try that diet. I gained 3 lbs in Guatemala. Crap.

Lori said...

Yay for you! Five pounds lost is AMAZING!

I'm starting a whole new blog to document my health struggle and get me on the road to where I want to be. I hope you'll stop by to encourage me.